major overhaul

happy new year, as they say.
i say, i hope this fucking year is better than last fucking year.

here are my simple resolutions that no one but myself can help me with:

1- pay my bills on time. can it really be that difficult? how it is that people are so good at this? it's an art i have neither appreciated or adapted for my life. with a nice little christmas bonus i am starting off the year with all of the tools i need. let's see if i can master this once and for all.

2- say what i mean and mean what i say. if there is another thing i need to work on, it is uncorking the bottle of emotions i have invested years in. it's time to speak. count on me to tell you what i really think. you sort of realize as you get older that you don't have anyone else to shield your feelings for you. you mom can't tell your sister to apologize for throwing your barbies on the roof anymore. and your mom can't tell someone you love them for you. it's all you.

3- do the dishes. this one is a no-brainer, too. don't grow science experiments... just fucking wash them.